Ticklish toes

Aimée is just at that stage where she is starting to laugh. I wonder what makes her laugh. Are her toes ticklish? Is she into that whole "Peak-A-Boo" (however you say that in Vietnamese) thing? Maybe blowing raspberries kisses on her hands will set her off into giggles. Is her tummy ticklish? I can't wait to know what she finds funny. I will definitely try to win her over with baby humour. I have even practiced my "Coochi-Coochi-Coo" in the mirror a few times. I have not mastered it just yet; but I will keep working on it. You have to have just the right sing-song tone and long pauses between the words. You try it and you will see what I mean. I certainly would not want to scare her with an overly zealous "Coochi-Coochi-Coo" right off the bat. I often try to imagine what she might sound like when she laughs and squeals. It will be the sweetest sound ever, that I am already sure of.

Learning the ropes.....

Well, I have decided to try and make the best of this extra time. Today, I thought I would practice using the carrier while I cleaned the house. I found a 4l bottle of water and placed it in the little seating area. Yikes, after 20 min it felt pretty heavy, not to mention it seemed to get in the way of everything. It is a good thing I tried it out on a water bottle first because it takes some adjusting and maneuvering. Who would have thought? At one point I bent over to pick something up and the water bottle nearly slid out. Ooops!

Another hiccup….. My agency is working with a new official and she has asked that I redo my medical. My medical was submitted and approved on time and technically it has not expired; but, is it worth the time and energy to fight the official on this? Do I want to risk having my file pushed to the back of the pile? I hate being in such a vulnerable position. I can only hope that this will not delay things even further.

Time is the longest distance between two places. ~Tennessee Williams

My heart is heavy today. I was told by the agency yesterday that I will not likely be traveling now before the end of March. Yet another delay!!!! This waiting has definitely been the hardest thing to deal with throughout the adoption process. It seems I am forever waiting to commence my next waiting period. And well, I have never really been the most patient person to begin with…. as a child I always tried to sneak a peak at my Christmas gifts early. But now, I REALLY get the whole patience thing. If this was meant to teach me a life lesson; I got it. Now, if we could just hurry the heck up and get on with it. ;)

Another month and a half seems like an eternity. I am desperate to hold Aimée in my arms and to have her know her Mommy is there. I want to rock her in my arms and rub her little back. I want to be there when she cries and reassure her that everything is o.k. I want to bathe her, feed her and yes… I can’t wait to even diaper her.

It helps to know it is already tomorrow in Vietnam!

For my daughter Aimée

KISSES IN THE WIND


I hold you in my heart and touch you in my dreams.
You are here each day with me, at least that's how it seems.

I know you wonder where I am... what's taking me so long.
But remember child, I love you so and God will keep you strong.

Now go outside and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin...
Because tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God hold you in His hand until I can be with you.
I promise you, my darling, I'm doing all that I can do.

Very soon, you'll have a family for real, not just pretend.
But for tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God wrap you in His arms and hold you very tight.
And let the angels bring the kisses that I send to you each night.
--- Unknown